My Caretakers, Equipo de Jan

My Caretakers, Equipo de Jan

We came together as a group for the first time in my living room at the end of December, 2019. At that time it was clear that I needed help and caretaking around the clock. I had been diagnosed with leukemia after several months of unexplained weakness, loss of...
Mending the Ceramic Tiles, Step by Step

Mending the Ceramic Tiles, Step by Step

My house, Casa de Corazon sits high above the city of San Isidro de El General with a magnificent view over the city and the mountains beyond. One can almost see Panama from my place. The formal (if such a word could or should be used) entry to my house is through a...
A Medical Update, October Surprise!

A Medical Update, October Surprise!

​I think it is time for an update! Time is flying by seemingly faster than ever before. And change is ubiquitous. It seems like it was just a few months ago that Covid crashed into our lives managing to alter everyone’s plans, both short and long term. Here in Costa...
This is Your World Now

This is Your World Now

I am sometimes living in what I call a panic mode. It isn’t something that comes through my thoughts. It doesn’t seem specific. But my body sometimes is feeling definite fear, like I need to to run somewhere or get away from something. But of course I cannot. I feel...
Seurat (2002 – 2019)

Seurat (2002 – 2019)

The spirited butterfly danced and rested in the celosia windows, visible just over the screen of my laptop. White flowers still floated in the water filled food bowl next to the back door. An altar and remembrance. Next to my office chair the soft red rug was bare....
‘Notes in the Night’, a prelude

‘Notes in the Night’, a prelude

Hoping to complete the first draft by December, 2019. Notes in the Night is the working title for my personal reconnection with Frank after his death on March 10, 2014. It began in subtle signals and signs. Then it evolved into a trusted dialog lasting five years. An...
Gratitude for my Animal Family

Gratitude for my Animal Family

March 2019 After 102 days without rain, except for one ½ hour drizzle, we were parched and eager for a respite from the summer drought. “We” includes my entire Casa de Corazon family or all the beings who live here. Inside or Outside. On March 20 it happened. A 3 – 4...
Rebuilding the Wall

Rebuilding the Wall

The rebuilding of the wrecked wall project became official in my mind when I turned my car into my carport and saw the pile of supplies: a stack of collapsed gaviones (galvanized steel wire cages that would be filled with rocks), hard black plastic tubing, a roll of...